I get its not really a problem, others wish that was their only concern. I'm just at this stage in life where motivation is hard to come by and self confidence is hanging out with motivation.
So I've resolved to spend the summer working on the story I plan to submit for my thesis. The issue is settling in on a theme that feels solid. The work is an adaptation of three short stories I wrote.
A familiar event that occurs when revisiting old material is how bad it is. You see not only grammatical errors but characters you under developed and some that took over. The core of the story is solid, it's the subtle nuanced stuff I'm struggling with like the opening and who to delete. I'm at that point every writer get to, the "my god you suck at this!" Point. I'm questioning every decision I've made so far and this fifty or so pages in.
Then you get a glimmer of the answer, but it's out there, a blur teasing you just out of reach. The answer of course is to just plow through. That's where motivation comes in. I start finding other things to do instead of plowing through, like updating my blog.
Little things to be sure. First world problems as my friend is want to say. The story will be written.
