19mar2015 the process

Still working the priest and the process is so tiring mentally.

I have the tree of the story but the carving out of the exquisitely designed chair is proving an even bigger pain than ever.

I've been studying elements of style religous lately and finding sooo many faults in my writing. This is after rewriting this story about ten times already. (Smile)

Now armed with the above mentioned weapon I am going over it yet again and my brain is fatigued!

Now I'm nog one of those twelve hour a day guys; I do two at the most in a sitting, but it's an intense two hours as I gather any writer will tell you.

I love that I'm still at it though.

Back

Working on the drifting priest again.

The story has confounded me for weeks. It just sat there on the laptop taunting me. I considered quitting it but know that's a sure path to nothing achived.

So I waited...

Other ideas fighting for attention quietly logged and put aside. Now they force me to write. 

If I don't complete priest I cannot get to them!

But now at least priest is moving. I simply had to remember wise words from a friend.

"Don't overthink it!"

Right now

Calm my brother.

You are the master of your rage.

Do not let it lead you down the path of regret. People will hurt for reasons not their own. 

Bridges will burn when there's no need.

Take the fire and use it!

Mold that shit into fine china.

Make it something you can look at later and be proud of

No just one more bad memory.

23sep14 pre b day

Pre birthday and I'm drowning in introspection.

Can't stop the words

Can't stop the probing.

I have a hate/love thing going with myself :)

Fifty nine tomorrow. Christ it went fast!

And I've achieved...so little.

11sep2914 library

Damn! i wrote something today!

I know that sounds trite. What i mean to say is i wrote something new!

I've been chipping away at a couple of olderr stories preping them for submission to the writing program here so either haven't had time or haven't made time for anything new.

But i was always thinking about it; Accepting then rejecting countless premises finally i just did a steven king and just sat down and let it flow.

Most of it will be dumped but so what? The effort! The mighty effort is what counts, the on the way to something new that you created. man, thats the shit.

Back

It's been a few.

Seems like after alpa omega I seemed to lose my motivation. I'm well aware that the writer cannot wait for motivation/inspiration but I simply couldn't muster it up.

I spent the summer crossing off my medical checklist; things the doctor tells you to do when you reach my age that I'd been blowing off. I decided I wasn't gonna die from something I could prevent so...

All good for the most part and the not as good is treatable. Still it was a psychological strain.

I'm finally ready to get back to things.

My final two classes are coming up, math again and one science biology. Also have to put together a package for grad school. 

     The creative writing program requires in addition to letters of recommendation two sample short stories. I have the two but both were written a couple yrs ago. I'm in the process of re writing them. I'm not 100% sure that's best. Probably should just do new ones but I feel they're my best work so far. I'm also in the guts of two others stories.

Just wanted to say I'm back to things.  :)

Jun05 2014 finished Omega/ Alpha

ok Alpha and Omega but really is that name gonna stick?
Its a passable rough draft in desperate need of a re-write but it'll have to wait till Jason has his input.
Im still proud of myself though (smile)