23sep14 pre b day

Pre birthday and I'm drowning in introspection.

Can't stop the words

Can't stop the probing.

I have a hate/love thing going with myself :)

Fifty nine tomorrow. Christ it went fast!

And I've achieved...so little.

11sep2914 library

Damn! i wrote something today!

I know that sounds trite. What i mean to say is i wrote something new!

I've been chipping away at a couple of olderr stories preping them for submission to the writing program here so either haven't had time or haven't made time for anything new.

But i was always thinking about it; Accepting then rejecting countless premises finally i just did a steven king and just sat down and let it flow.

Most of it will be dumped but so what? The effort! The mighty effort is what counts, the on the way to something new that you created. man, thats the shit.

Back

It's been a few.

Seems like after alpa omega I seemed to lose my motivation. I'm well aware that the writer cannot wait for motivation/inspiration but I simply couldn't muster it up.

I spent the summer crossing off my medical checklist; things the doctor tells you to do when you reach my age that I'd been blowing off. I decided I wasn't gonna die from something I could prevent so...

All good for the most part and the not as good is treatable. Still it was a psychological strain.

I'm finally ready to get back to things.

My final two classes are coming up, math again and one science biology. Also have to put together a package for grad school. 

     The creative writing program requires in addition to letters of recommendation two sample short stories. I have the two but both were written a couple yrs ago. I'm in the process of re writing them. I'm not 100% sure that's best. Probably should just do new ones but I feel they're my best work so far. I'm also in the guts of two others stories.

Just wanted to say I'm back to things.  :)

Jun05 2014 finished Omega/ Alpha

ok Alpha and Omega but really is that name gonna stick?
Its a passable rough draft in desperate need of a re-write but it'll have to wait till Jason has his input.
Im still proud of myself though (smile)

29May3014 almost Omega.

Nearing the end of the first draft of the screenplay "alpha and Omega."

Made a great effort to stay true to Jason's vision. I hope I captured the "spirit" of his tale.

I realize I have been limiting myself the last couple of weeks while working on this. I felt like it was the only thing I should be doing writing wise. That is wrong headed. My mind, like others can handle many different subjects at once. No reason I can't apply that to various writing projects.

I know;I state the obvious. Well, not all of us see al of it all the time.  :)

Going back to my "priest" story. I miss wresting with my own demons.

22May2014 slow progress

Alpha is plodding along. I'm about halfway through the rewrite and realize this thing is all over the place. I was spending way too much time scrolling back and forth thru the manuscript. Decided to go back and just straight line all the main chracters story lines. I can then drop them into the main piece in any position. I favor linear but Jason seems to be shooting for more "pulp fiction" type form.

My feeling is the latter will interrupt the flow but it's ultimately his screenplay.

What a mug huh?

18May2014

Always remember to nurture your hate.

Keep it fresh.

Drag it out from time to time and remember the source, and the reason.

Because the day may come when you'll need it and it will have grown stale and weak from lack of use.

The Alpha/Omega project continues but under a different perview.

Right now, today Jason seems far less comitted than myself. I have found myself in the postion of working on a story I would not have touched otherwise. My decision is to continue to work it for severa

 Reasons.

-I've tasked myself with finishing all the projects I start.

-all writing make my writing better.

-I said I would and I endeavor to keep my word these days.

So...breathe! Breathe you monster! breathe!